Entry #2:
I’ve been trying to practice alchemy and turn immense pain and anger into a magical antidote that can heal people who desire to harm other and the governments that support them. I don’t want anyone else to hurt like that.
But there is some relief. I haven’t felt that in ages. MV took away my ability to be happy and the “justice” system helped him right along, and now it feels like I finally have some permission. On the denouement after Easter, the rebirth is real. Despite not being overly religious, spring has sprung and all of the stereotypical attributes feel in full effect. I welcome it after almost 3 years of black out.
We covered a lot of ground in a short week: from the Peace Bond hearing to Queens Park, interviews at various news outlets (thank you!) and meetings with new friends in film- Oscar nominated director Nisha Pahuja about making a documentary and some old friends too- Randy Thomas for important narrative projects. I also managed to see some girlfriends and family for some quality time. Lots of laughs were had. I don’t feel like I have this giant secret anymore.
Going public has eradicated the shame and the “othering” of being a survivor.
Thank you for listening to me and helping me carry the weight. Thank you for sharing your stories. I know united we will change this and protect others.
Please sign the petition:
https://www.change.org/p/amend-chapter-11b-of-the-charter-of-rights-and-freedoms-canada